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In November of 2020 half of my apartment burnt down. I lost a lot of my valuables. In April of 2021 when my crappy landlord still had not done any repairs on my apartment I moved to Florida. In Nov. 2021 I shaved my head to start growing my hair over. My hair was way over-processed! I then decided to not cut or bleach my hair until my birthday 2025 so I can finally have my dream "mermaid" hair. In Dec. 2021 I signed up for business school and am going strong with a B average. Starting next month I am joining Smile Direct Club to fix the gap in my top teeth smile. In May of 2022 I am starting a new eating lifestyle that I have been creating for several months now. I am a certified Natural Health Consultant and have researched the hell out of this new life plan. I have gotten rid of all of the toxic people in my life. Now, it is time to get rid of all of the toxins in my body. No new years resolutions for me. Just plans of greatness! In June or July my first non-fiction book will be hitting shelves. Once you get rid of the toxic people in your life, things really do look up. Sure, you have to work for it, but the work is joyous and freeing. There are no toxic people to bring me down and to sabotage me. For the first time in 8 years, llife is genuinly good. 

Food Plan:

These first foods are all you can eat...But don't go crazy, there's never a reason to stuff yourself into an uncomfortable state.

  • Celery
  • Berries
  • Grapefruit
  • Carrots
  • Tomatoes
  • Cucumbers
  • Watermelon
  • Peas
  • Apples
  • Lemons
  • Limes
  • Water
  • Seltzer
  • Plain Tea
  • Black Coffee
  • Herbs
  • Hot Sauce
  • Chiles
  • Mustard
  • Garlic
  • Ginger
  • Onions
  • Spinach
  • Alfalfa Sprouts
  • Salsa
  • Lettuce
  • Bok Choy
  • Squash
  • Mushrooms
  • Eggplant
  • Asparagus
  • Cabbage
  • Bell Peppers
  • Cantaloupe
  • Peaches
  • Honeydew
  • Grapes
  • Pineapple
  • Kiwi
  • Brussel sprouts
Below is a pic of me 1 month and a few days after starting my healthier lifestyle. Now this pic is taken at a complimentary angle but my skin is looking much better and my hair is shinier and that's something. :-)

These next foods are to be had no more than once a day and according to the proper serving sizes listed below. You may add anything to them from the column on the left, but do NOT add anything else such as: Butter, oil, lard, sugar, syrup...
Part of getting healthy means no fillers or fake sweeteners which is why I have no diet beverages or reduced fat items on my food lists.

Pick no more than 3 items from the list below per day.

Avocados 1 per day
Chicken 3 oz. per day
Turkey 3 oz. per day
Oats 1/2 cup before cooking per day
100% juice One 8 oz. cup per day
Full Fat Yogurt 1/2 cup per day
1 cup of 4% cottage cheese per day

Daily Supplements to take:
Why these are good for me:

Vitamin C-

Vitamin C (ascorbic acid) is a nutrient your body needs to form blood vessels, cartilage, muscle and collagen in bones. Vitamin C is also vital to your body's healing process.

Vitamin C is an antioxidant that helps protect your cells against the effects of free radicals — molecules produced when your body breaks down food or is exposed to tobacco smoke and radiation from the sun, X-rays or other sources. Free radicals might play a role in heart disease, cancer and other diseases. Vitamin C also helps your body absorb and store iron.

Because your body doesn't produce vitamin C, you need to get it from your diet. Vitamin C is found in citrus fruits, berries, potatoes, tomatoes, peppers, cabbage, Brussels sprouts, broccoli and spinach. Vitamin C is also available as an oral supplement, typically in the form of capsules and chewable tablets.

Vitamin E-

Vitamin E is a nutrient that's important to vision, reproduction, and the health of your blood, brain and skin.

Vitamin E also has antioxidant properties. Antioxidants are substances that might protect your cells against the effects of free radicals — molecules produced when your body breaks down food or is exposed to tobacco smoke and radiation. Free radicals might play a role in heart disease, cancer and other diseases. If you take vitamin E for its antioxidant properties, keep in mind that the supplement might not offer the same benefits as naturally occurring antioxidants in food.

Foods rich in vitamin E include canola oil, olive oil, margarine, almonds and peanuts. You can also get vitamin E from meats, dairy, leafy greens and fortified cereals. Vitamin E is also available as an oral supplement in capsules or drops.

Vitamin E deficiency can cause nerve pain (neuropathy).

The recommended daily amount of vitamin E for adults is 15 milligrams a day.


Biotin (vitamin B7) is a vitamin found in foods like eggs, milk, and bananas. Biotin deficiency can cause thinning of the hair and a rash on the face. Biotin is an important part of enzymes in the body that break down substances like fats, carbohydrates, and others.


Collagen is a protein responsible for healthy joints and skin elasticity, or stretchiness. It’s in your bones, muscles, and blood, comprising three quarters of your skin and a third of the protein in your body.

As you age, your existing collagen breaks down, and it gets harder for your body to produce more. As a result, many people turn to collagen supplements. These supplements are usually powders, though there are also capsules and liquid supplements available.

Collagen is also produced naturally in the body by combining amino acids, the building blocks of proteins found in food.

To the left is a picrure taken of me on April 28, 2022. I realize a full body pic would be better, but I love this pic...Anyway, my new life plan is underway now and I am doing quite well. So far I feel more energetic. I have only been doing this plan for about 7 days now so I am sure more good results are on the way, and I am excited! 
Being diagnosed with breast cancer is no joke and I was diagnosed a few days ago and it has just inspired me even more to get my body as healthy as I can get it. The ball is in my court and I am gonna hit it and hit it hard!

Ok, to the left in the plaid dress, that pic was taken of me on May 2, 2022. It's almost a completely full body picture so we all know what I am starting with. Today I got a recumbant indoor exercise bike and rode it for 10 minutes. The goal is to ride it 15-20 minutes 2 times a day, but I have to work up to that. I did surprise myself though as I found it to be a lot of fun and I really didn't think that I would like it.
I have been following my nutrition guidelines and have been feeling more energetic and I think that this new life plan is truly going to give me a new life. I know it sounds corny but, I am actually excited about all of this!

Day 3 of bike riding. Luckily the seat is the same height as my wheelchair so it is easy for me to slide on and off of it.

I made the cover of Chaos Chix magazine for May 2022!! Click the cover to the left to be redirected to the purchase information. Enjoy! 

My energy is crazy and I am exercising like a fiend because of it! I haven't felt this good since I was a teenager, it's incredible! Buying fresh fruit salads is my new hobby as buying cheesecakes was my old hobby lol. One day I may actually be fully healthy, I never thought that would be possible, but now I feel like it is so possible that I am giddy!
To the left is a picture of my regular lunch, sometimes I add cottage cheese to it, and it is so good! Fruit never filled me before but now, I just eat a large portion and I am full for hours. I get the vitamins I need and I get my sweet cravings flled at the same time. I am truly happy and feeling great!!!
Things are really staring to look up for me. About 2 years ago I started getting rid of all of the toxic people in my life. Last week I got rid of the last toxic person in my life, my fiance at the time. He actually tried to make me feel bad for him since I got breast cancer, are you kidding me??? See ya! So now I am toxic person free, bad food habit free, and full of energy and happiness. Yup, I have cancer but I feel great! 

I skipped riding the bike yesterday but I rode it today. I hope to get up tp riding it 2 times a day every day. Yesterday was a rare exception due to being awake the whle night before working and just being plain out of energy. 8 minutes and 25 seconds worth of riding today.
For breakfast I had a yoplait single serving of strawberry yogurt and a cup of coffee with some hazlenut creamer in it. The creamer goes against my diet, but it is my only cheat. For lunch today I am once again having fresh fruit salat, which is always wonderful, and I have added a scoop of cottage cheese on top of it. I have learned that the Public's brand cottage cheese is not so good, but the Walmart kind is fabulous!


I am still being a good fat girl and eating right and exercising. I did take off one more day from riding the bike because I ended up having some oral surgery a few days ago and just felt like hell that day. I have ridden it 23 days out of 25 days though which is awesome for me. In the past my exercise record was like 2 or 3 days in a row and then a few years off. I hate the bike more and more every day lol, but I think it is because I am pedaling harder and faster, so it never feels easier. This is one of those bikes that has the moving arms too, so I am getting a really good workout on this bike from HELL. I also have changed up my physical therapy exercises to a higher impact than usual. I am wearing myself out, but I do feel a little more muscular and a little more cheery. I am eating well and exercising and working like a fiend...Life is starting to have a bright side again.

I am also working on a mermaid project. I have always loved mermaids. I call myself a land mermaid. This project is gonna be awesome! I am very excited.


Today’s lunch was a bowl of pineapple with some vanilla Yoplait yogurt on top of it and it was delicious! It was very dessert-like tasting. I felt like I was cheating. I also rode the damn bike today. I am just gonna keep chugging along. I added a new exercise today. Some weightlifting. 3 sets of 10. I realize 5-pound weights are not really heavy, but ya know what? They’re heavy to me and every person has to start somewhere, and 5-pound weights is where I am starting. Feeling tired today but still happy about my new life plan. I am sticking to it, and I am slowly getting stronger which has got to mean I am getting healthier too. I am pretty sure the two go hand in hand.

Doing a mermaid shoot today for a new website and magazine. Sooooo excited! I love mermaids and have always wanted to be one. This is going to be so much fun! it may be a new site and magazine, but it is gonna be awesome!


A lot of people who are severely overweight or underweight come from abusive lives…the first time I was raped was by a man named Brian Hall. I was engaged to him at the time and actually didn’t realize it was rape for a long time. I’m not even sure if he was fully aware that it was rape. He and I were engaged. We had been together close to a year, and he wanted to try anal sex and since I loved him, I said yes. We started and it hurt so badly I cried and said “no” and cried “stop” and tried to get him off of me, but he kept going until he was finished. When he finished, he said “I heard you say stop, but it felt so good that I couldn’t.” This was 25 years ago, and I still remember those exact words. He knew I didn’t want it. He knew it was hurting me. He didn’t stop. That’s rape, and by a man I loved at the time. We broke up shortly after that. I started catching him in lies and other childish crap. He just was not the man I thought he was.

My brother molested me for years and beat the crap out of me quite often.

My father beat the crap out of me from time to time and mentally and emotionally abused me as much as possible. My mother was mentally and emotionally abusive too. No one ever listened to me. No one was kind to me. All 3 husbands abused me in their own ways. Yelling, screaming, insulting, pushing, hitting, lying, cheating, raping, destroying…You know who never yelled at me? A Snickers bar…People eat their feelings. We all have to find comfort somewhere. Don’t be one of those who then abuses the plus size person more because they found a way to feel some comfort. Body shaming has completely gotten out of hand in this country, and everyone needs to stop!

It took me until I was 35 and married to husband #3 to get some self-esteem. He punched me in the face 2 times in a row in front of my then 9-year-old son…on our first Mother’s Day together. I was just done. I had him arrested. I did a lot of writing and thinking and crying and I decided, I am too good for this shit. I deserved better than wasting my time and tears over a piece of shit that would beat me for no reason in front of my child while destroying all of the things I had left to me from my mother after her death. He was garbage, I was not going to take it anymore, and a new me was born. The phoenix rises from the ashes indeed!


Been sticking to my healthy eating plan for about 6 weeks now. Other than my usual allergies and pms/menopausal issues I have been feeling better and healthier. I hurt my leg a bit on the bike a couple of days ago, again, so I gave up the bike because my leg is still fucked up from it. I have gone 5 days with no bike. I am giving myself 2 more bike free days and then I will start again. My goal is to ride a mile a day…A slow-ass mile, but an entire mile. Wish me luck!

Got my first box from Ipsy last month and it was ok. Worth the $13 bucks I'd say. Today I got my first box from Boxy Charm. They charge $27.99 per month but the box is super impressive! Everything is full size and there are 5 things in the box all that go together. I got brightening face wash. Stem Cell anti aging cream. Lip liner. Lip plumping gloss, and a great eye shadow kit. If I feel up to it I am gonna use it all tomorrow for my shoot...Got a sexy little pink and black thingie in the mail from Hot Topic today. That shall be worn in my shoot tomorrow as well. For you who do not like my natural hair, fuck off kindly as there will be no wigs worn in any outdoor shoots for a while. It's gonna be 102 tomorrow. :-) Remember, my "fuck off" was kindly. ;-)

I have been doing pretty well considering  my chronicc fatigue that I have had recenty. I have been sticking to my diet other than yesterday. The AC in my van was broken so dad and I drove to Sarasota to get it fixed. That's a long drive in SW Florida without any AC...Anyway we did stop at the Chinese buffet on the way back. I love me some Chinese food and I was seriously hungry but still, I only ate chicken and veggies. Not too shabby considdering the had dumplings and eggrolls and all sorts of other goodies. I am proud of me. 

I have not blogged in a bit because of everything that is going on around me. Dad in and out of the hospital. Launching 4 new magazines and getting 50+ new models. Just lots of stuff, plus I am doing a diet change up in a bit. Just waiting for a delivery. I will tell you more when I know more. Wanted to say hi to my regular readers and let you know I am still around lol. Have a great day!

So much to say because so much has been going on. Lots of good things, a few not so good, but I am so bsy that this is all I have time to write right now!!