Happy St. Patrick’s Day! I am having a painful morning. My back hurts and my sciatica is acting up. Fingers crossed Advil will save the day!

I haven’t had breakfast yet, but the plan is for a veggie wrap and some grapefruit slices. Lunch will be vegan chili and dinner will be vegan chili. I am making a mini crock pot full.

I have so much stuff to do between today and tomorrow so…maybe I’ll stay in bed.


2 pink grapefruits and coffee for breakfast. 2 grapefruits means 2 Sweet N Low packets. I sliced the grapefruits like they were oranges. These bad boys were squirters for sure! When I was finished eating them I looked like some sort of grapefruit pervert…but they were so good! I also had some coffee with some powdered hazelnut creamer I got from The Dollar Tree. That was good too. I burnt the shit out of my tongue, but it helped wake my tired ass up a bit.


I am currently separated from my 3rd husband and have been for almost 10 years. When I met him I had a ton of friends and slowly but surely he took me away from all of that...Now I am alone most of the time. I got away from him and his abuse, but I left the relationship with PTSD. A lot of people get scared when they hear that, and they don't wanna get involved with a person who has it. Personally, I think that sucks!

I had 3 apples for breakfast today. Not in the mood to do dishes or cook so my options were limited…They were good tho. All red and crisp and juicy!


I started this new, healthier lifestyle because I felt myself dying. I felt myself falling into a pit of depression while stuffing my face for comfort that never came. I felt myself hurting and aching and longing to be anyone but me. I felt completely lost in my own home. In my own body. In my own world. Alone…All alone. That’s why I changed my life. I am down about 45 pounds now. Moving is easier. My joint pain has decreased. I will hopefully be completely out of this wheelchair before the year is through. I am still partially lost, but I am starting to find myself again. I am no longer falling down the rabbit hole, so much as I am clawing my way out of it.


1:39 a.m. and I am wide awake and starving and full of cramps, so I am having some seltzer and some cantaloupe chunks. Cantaloupe is so good! It is juicy and sweet and kinda squishy and just fabulous!

Cantaloupe is full of:

Beta Carotene

Vitamin C

Folate (vitamin B9)




vitamin K











Not too shabby,eh?


I am now eating all plant based. No more yogurt. I did have some string cheese yesterday, but other than that all I had was fruit and veggies and I continue to go on that way.

I have created a few very simple recipes that I am sharing today also. The key to this diet for me is…eating huge portions of food…Seriously, I have to stay full, otherwise diets do not work for me. So, this is the perfect diet for me. Fruits and veggies are fat free and full of water and vitamins and minerals and I just eat and eat and eat lol and I am down 42 pounds in 2 months. Not too shabby! The only thing I eat other than fruit and veggies is herbs and spices. Don’t hold the string cheese from yesterday against me lol, once in a while, a slip may happen. We cannot punish ourselves for them, we just have to get back on track a.s.a.p., and I did!


Cheating…Have I cheated? Yup. One time, one meal, yesterday. One time in 2 months is not awful in my opinion. I had such a craving for Chinese food though and it was making me crazy, so I just got some Chinese food for lunch. All veggie, and all super yummy! Today though, I am not doing what I have always done in the past, I am not giving up because of one over indulgence. I am right back to eating super healthy and I feel good about it. I needed a cheat to keep my sanity. Changing my entire food regimen and lifestyle of the last 20+ years is hard, and for the most part I am adjusting well.

I had a pretty big breakfast this morning. A pink grapefruit with Sweet N Low, a small red apple, a banana, and some blackberry Yoplait. It was so good! Now, it’s noon and I am having a heaping serving of my vegan chili. Very zesty and filling. One of my fave. foods!


Breakfast time. I am finally starting to feel better. I have been out of the hospital for about 3 days now…So for breakfast I am having Tuscan Seasoned Broccoli…Sounds fancy, right? That’s because I am fancy like that…Just kidding. It is a Green Giant Steamers, and it is yummy! I am also having an apple. Why so many apples? I think I have answered this question once before, but I am going to elaborate on it…It’s because of the pectin. Apple pectin is a type of soluble fiber naturally present in apples. It's used for a number of health conditions, such as to improve their digestive health and ease common digestive complaints.


Well, I haven’t been blogging because I have been in the hospital for the last 3 days with pneumonia and RSV. I have, however, been following my diet. The cafeteria menu is really quite extensive. I have been drinking unsweetened tea with lemon and ice water. I have been eating fruits, veggies, black bean veggie burgers and this morning, a little oatmeal with slices of banana. Not too shabby.


I am still in the hospital. This morning for breakfast I had a veggie omelet. No cheese. Egg whites only. I also had some fresh fruit salad which was made up of pineapple, honey dew, cantaloupe, and red grapes. I also had some hot tea with lemon and 1 Sweet N’ Low. Quite tasty indeed!

I feel absolutely awful. Pneumonia and RSV are no joke!


Well, it is 11:47 a.m. and all I have had is half an apple…Of course I am sicker than sick. I have pneumonias and I feel like I am just one big ball of snot. Sexy, right?


The chili I made yesterday was so incredibly good, I am making more for today. I am using garbanzo beans and pinto beans today. The same seasonings and onions and salsa, but different beans because that’s what I have.

For breakfast I am having one green apple and one red apple and some seltzer.

I have developed a bit of a cold, so I added some extra spices (black pepper) to the chili to help unclog my sinuses. The spicier the better in my opinion when it comes to chili, so I added some hot sauce. It is going to be amazing!


I have a little crock pot and I love to make what I call vegetarian chili in it. I use 2 cans of beans, any kind. Today I used garbanzo beans and black beans. You can use whatever kind you like too. I then add half of a small onion diced up. A white or yellow onion. I add garlic salt, 1 cup of salsa (any kind), some hot sauce, some black pepper, and some chili powder. I then leave it in the crock-pot on low for about 3 hours and it’s done, and it is lunch and dinner for the day.

For breakfast I am having a grapefruit. My head is pounding. I am getting a head cold, so I am also sucking on zinc lozenges. They work miracles!

It's almost noon and I am just so tired today. I guess I am going to allow myself to have a lazy weekend. I will still work, but I will skip fun things such as laundry and vacuuming. Had a salad for breakfast. It was really good. For lunch...not sure yet. Enjoy your weekend!


For dinner last night I just had some fresh fruit. It was quite good. Now for breakfast I am having 12 ounces of raw veggies. Cauliflower, broccoli, and baby carrots. I felt like a little crunchy.

Looking in the mirror this morning and I am down to almost only 1 chin...who knew I wasn't supposed to have more lol.

The true test will be if my new jeans fit…We shall see! I will take a pic if they do.


For lunch I am going to have more broccoli slaw. It’s so damn good and filling and low in calories and fat free…I am very proud of myself. This is the first diet I have ever done that I truly believe can be a lifestyle change for me. A permeant fix. And, it’s all because I am never hungry. I just chomp on fruit and veggies all day long. Pounds are falling off and pain is lessening, and energy is boosting and damn, I found the answer to life lol.


Last night all I had was an apple for dinner. My lunch was so late, and I ate so much, I wasn’t very hungry.

This morning I am having 1 red apple and 1 green apple for breakfast. I like apples in the morning, they seem to give me a little kick of energy. With MS my energy is so limited that anything that helps me regain some of it is wonderful!

2/6/2019 3:52 p.m.

A few people have asked me how I can be satisfied eating only fruit, vegetables, and yogurt…It’s because I am eating huge amounts of food! For lunch today, I am having some broccoli slaw. It contains broccoli, carrots, and red cabbage. I am eating an entire pound of it. An entire pound of food and only 125 fat free calories. There’s fiber, calcium, iron, and potassium in this salad. If you feel like a little stir-fry, this slaw is great for that too. I buy it by the 1 pound bag at Wal-Mart. The brand is Marketside and it is $2.48 per bag. Can’t get a big salad from a restaurant for such a low price. I am also having a seltzer and an apple. There’s no way not to be full on this diet!

2/6/2019 7:33 a.m.

I woke up feeling pretty good today. Not as much pain as usual. My back is ok and my muscles feel sorta relaxed…It’s absolutely amazing!

For breakfast I am going to have some pink grapefruit, and some peaches. Canned peaches. Yes, fresh is better but, the slimy, canned peaches that are in natural juice…I really just love the hell outta them!

Later on today I am going to post some of my favorite recipes that I have created. Fried potatoes I think will be my first recipe…Frying without oil of course. Crispy, spicy, taters…YUM!

I had an odd but tasty breakfast. I had my favorite, a blackberry Yoplait, but it wasn't enough, so I also had an entire cucumber sliced with some blue cheese dressing. I do plan to cut out the salad dressings and start to use only different flavors of salsa, but I have all of these dressings that I bought before I started the diet and I will not throw them out. They cost too much! I did however give away all of my non-diet food to a friend who needed a little help. I was happy to help feed a family. In the past I have been in those shoes so I refuse to throw anything out that someone else can benefit from. I always donate clothes to the women's shelter and such...


Lunch time is crunch time…Big bowl of raw veggies with 2 tablespoons of blue cheese dressing…YUM!

Let’s talk about probiotics. I take 2 every morning. The kind I take are Digestive Advantage Probiotic Gummies. They’re quite tasty.

Probiotics are live bacteria and yeasts that are good for you, especially your digestive system. Many studies say that they help with thyroid disorders and keeping you regular. My blood tests and bathroom visits are proof enough for me! My thyroid is very out of whack and I am allergic to every thyroid med. out there, but the probiotics have started to help me a lot!

Yesterday I spent the day with friends talking and playing card games. I brought my own food since I knew I was going to be there for the entire day. We get together every Sunday. It's really a lot of fun. So...I brought some of my apple chips, some dates, a banana, some dried apricots and some seltzer, and I just ate a little here and there and was very satisfied. I lost the card games, but I still had a blast and enjoyed all of my healthy snacking.
Today for breakfast I am having pears and a grapefruit with Sweet N' Low and some seltzer. 
Every day this new lifestyle of being healthier is getting easier and easier. Finally, I have found something that works for me. It only took 20 years...


Any time I crave sweets I eat dates. Have you ever tried dates? They’re so good!!! They’re also another great source of fiber and potassium. So, for breakfast I had some dates and some blackberry Yoplait yogurt. So good! I almost forgot, I had my newest obsession…Fuji Apple Fruit Crisps. They’re freeze dried apple slices…Replace your potato chip cravings with these bad boys, they’re tastier! Also, only 40, fat free, calories for a 0.35 oz. bag! I buy them by the box. 6 single serving bags per box.

Now, let’s get gross for a minute…When you change your way of eating to healthier, weight does start to fall off…in the toilet…Lots of fruits and veggies…Just make sure you stock up on toilet paper. No one ever wants to talk about it but seriously, we sweat, pee, and poop out our weight loss…So grow a pair, buy some 2-ply, and poop yourself to a healthier you! 😊

2/2/2019 (Again lol)

I am just your everyday fat, wheelchair bound, smart-ass who happens to be witty, sarcastic, hot as Hell, adorable, fascinating, brilliant, edgy, humble and modest...

People care way too much about looks esp. the parts of our looks that we have no control over...People cannot pick their color or their height or if their hair is curly or straight...We can't pick our shoe size or our eye color or our gender...Now yes, we can have surgeries and buy colored contacts and dye our hair and blah blah blah...but why? Why can't we just be happy with our looks? If we as a society were happier with ourselves we would criticize less, insult less, judge less and bash less. Let's all work on ourselves...in the long run it will not just be good for ourselves but good for everyone

Ok, rant over lol...I am eating a bowl of steamed mixed veggies for dinner with an apple chaser and a grapefruit bubly sparkling water. SO good!


For dinner last night I had an apple and a banana, and I ate it at midnight lol. I had fallen asleep around 5 p.m. slept until midnight, went to the restroom, ate some fruit, and fell asleep until 7 a.m. MS really wears me out at times.

Today for breakfast I am having 1 red apple, 1 green apple and 1 red raspberry Yolait “original” yogurt. I never realized how much I liked apples until I kinda forced myself to start eating them. Now I am buying 6 pounds of apples at a time. I forgot to mention I had a 12 ounce can of pain seltzer with each meal. No calories. No chemicals. Just sparkling goodness.

I have the worst cramps ever today! Mother Nature is a whore! Seriously, I have been going thru this for 32 years…If men had to go thru women’s issues for just one day of their lives, we would find them all curled up in a ball, crying under their beds.

Had a second lunch around 2:30 p.m. lol...I made myself a salad of cucumbers, red bell peppers, green bell peppers, white onions and cesar dressing. No lettuce today. The salad was super yummy!


Happy February!

For breakfast this morning I had 1 pink grapefruit with Sweet N’ Low, some applesauce, and some flavorless seltzer. Now it’s lunch time and I am having a Yoplait Whips yogurt. French Vanilla Latte flavored. SO GOOD! I am also having 1 red apple and 1 green apple. I eat apples everyday, about 5-6 of them, and here’s why…

Apples are very rich in important antioxidants, flavanoids, and dietary fiber. The phytonutrients and antioxidants in apples may help reduce the risk of developing cancer, hypertension, diabetes, and heart disease. Also, they’re negative calorie foods, so they really rev up the calorie burning process.


Today for breakfast I am having a ruby red grapefruit with some Sweet N’ Low sprinkled on it. 1 small apple, and 1 serving sized container of unsweetened applesauce. Unsweetened is the way to go with applesauce. It’s still very sweet, but it has half the calories and none of the added sugar.

I am slowly trying to become a vegetarian. I eat fruit, vegetables, yogurt and chicken and soup right now. I am planning to cut it down to just fruit, vegetables and yogurt. Some people may  find this to be very extreme, but it will get me all of my nutrients, kill no animals, still be all I can eat, and hopefully help my health drastically. I also take a one—a-day vitamin 2x a day to make sure I have all of the vitamins my body needs. I drink 2-3 cups of Emergency a day too.


Let's talk about artificial sweeteners...Do your best...TO STAY AWAY FROM THEM! A lot of scientific studies prove the link of artificial sweeteners to various neurological impairments. One study I read says MS is caused by aspartame. I used to have a pretty serious diet cola addiction and then I got diagnosed with MS...it may just be a coincidence, but according to the study, it's not! On the rare occasion that I use a fake sweetener I choose Sweet n' Low...It seems to have the least harmful side effects.

My healthy new lifestyle is really wonderful. I feel better. I look better, and I am truly never hungry. Not being distracted by hunger pangs helps me to be able to concentrate on my work more so I am being about twice as productive than usual. I a really just feeling great...Great physically anyway. I am hoping mentally I start to feel better soon too...Fingers crossed!

For breakfast today I had a pink grapefruit and an apple. I love fresh fruit!

Let's talk about negative calories foods.  

You can have as many of these negative calorie foods as you like without any weight gain, and that's because digesting these foods burns up more calories than what they essentially have. Therefore, reversing the calorie addition. This does not mean that these negative calorie foods do not contain calories, but only the fact that your body ends up burning more calories than what you eat.

There are several negative calorie foods, but here are the top 10 in my book:

Celery, berries, grapefruit (pink is my favorite), carrots, cucumbers, watermelon, apples, zucchini, broccoli, and lettuce.

So, have a big salad or a big fruit salad, everyday. Get healthier with great tasting foods. Seems like a win/win to me. I have been eating a lot of apples and cucumbers. They have really helped me feel full with my new way of eating, and feeling full for me is what it's all about. I used to always feel hungry on diets and that's why this time, it's different. That's why this time I am not calling how I am eating a diet but an actual lifestyle change. I know I will not go back to my old eating habits because I am NEVER hungry, so I never feel like I need to cheat...I love it!

Do you ever just feel lost,even though you know exactly where you are? it's like, why am I here?  How did I get here? Why am I staying here? I just have no idea what is going on with my life. I work and work and work and I am broke and struggling and lost...Oh well...on a happy note...
My diet is still going well. I am eating a ton of fresh fruit and lots of steamed veggies and baked chicken and great soups. I have gone down 2 pant sizes and 2 ring sizes but my tops seem to fit the same. I have lost weight in my face too. I now only have 1.5 chins. I also stood today with my walker and was able to let go for a few seconds and stood on my own. Baby steps to a healthier me...Maybe when I am healthier I won't feel so lost. Maybe I will finally feel like I fit somewhere.


I spend every day giving myself busy work and just waiting for the day to be over, so I can go back to sleep. I feel like I have no real friends. I feel like I am all alone. This is not a cry for help. I am not suicidal, but I am sad. I work hard, and I can barely afford to live. I do my physical therapy and follow my diet and I am still stuck in this damn wheelchair. I’m just sad. My sadness will not make me lose focus tho. I still get my work done. I still do my therapy. I still follow my diet…But, I do all of it alone, and I smile at passerby’s, and I sing happy ditties to my cat…and I wait until sleep consumes me…every day…alone.


Let’s talk about potatoes! Not sweet potatoes…I hate those little, orange fuckers, let’s talk about the regular, yellow, baking potato…God’s gift to all of us from beautiful Idaho! They are not keto friendly, but neither am I, so who cares?! This is just some of the wonderful things you get from potatoes…No fat, lots of calcium, and lots of potassium. Sounds good to me and tastes even better!

Up until recently I had quite the pasta addiction and now, I just eat potatoes in place of all pastas. You can make salads and side dishes and soups and casseroles with them…They’re awesome! Yeah, I am excited about potatoes, lol…It happens.

This meme tickled me, so I figured I would share it.
My diet is going very well. I admit I miss a few foods, but I am never hungry and I am starting to notice less plain and less bloating and just overall happier feelings and more energy. It's about dang time I stuck to a healthier lifestyle. I love the way it feels!

This meme tickled me, so I figured I would share it.
My diet is going very well. I admit I miss a few foods, but I am never hungry and I am starting to notice less plain and less bloating and just overall happier feelings and more energy. It's about dang time I stuck to a healthier lifestyle. I love the way it feels!
The diet is going well. I am in love with the Healthy Choice soups I get from the Dollar Tree. Dieting while poor is hard, but if you do thrifty shopping, it is possible. Frozen veggies at Wal-Mart, 88 cents a bag...I am making it work!

OMG cramps! I don't think there is anything harder about dieting than dieting during my time of the month. I want candy and carbs and gummy bears! Oh well, I would rather be healthy so...Veggie soup and chicken will be great!

I am what I call a research whore, so when it came to me finally getting my shit together and putting my health first, I researched the hell out of what would work best for me, and I have decided to share a few tips here and there that seem to work well for me and why they work well for me. Let me start by saying that the doctors who say that weight loss after 40 is really hard, yeah, I agree lol,, but I have found some things that are really working well for me. Here's one tip now.
I eat a few servings of alkaline vegetables and fruits a day. Alkaline fruits and veggies can reset one's digestive system to make weight loss a little bit easier than diets that do not include them.

Alkaline Fruit & Veggie List That I Enjoy: (There are several more of these foods but I have listed my faves only.)

Apples/cider, apricots, avocados, bananas, berries,  dates,  grapes, grapefruit, lemons, limes, olives, oranges, peaches, pears, pineapple, all melons, raisins, and tangerines.

Artichokes, asparagus, bamboo shoots,  lima beans, string beans, broccoli, cabbages, carrots, celery, cauliflower, corn, cucumber,  garlic, horseradish,  lettuce, mushrooms,  onions, parsley, peas, bell peppers, potatoes, pumpkin, sauerkraut, spinach, sprouts, squash.

I went to the Dollar Tree yesterday and they had some jellybeans...One of my favorite fat free candies...So I read the bag and it had almost 500 calories for the whole bag....and it's a small bag...so I didn't buy it, and I am so proud of myself for that! Baby steps to a new me...as long as I stay on track, a healthy life is just around the corner for me!

Do you ever just wonder how you're supposed to feel in a certain situation? Today I feel kinda numb to the world. I really just don't know what to feel...It's been a pretty boring day, but now that it is night I feel borderline depressed, but kinda sleepy and kinda dizzy...it's rather weird.
I got my mohawk back today. Green hair, facial piercings, and my mohawk...I am finally feeling like myself again. 
I  lost myself for a bit in 2017 and 2018. I was in the hospital for most of 2017 and I was in court trying to get my son back from foster care where he had to go when I was in the hospital. I dealt with court dates until Aug. 20. It was crazy! The judge didn't think a single parent in a wheelchair could take care of an 18 yer-old special needs child. She didn't seem to care that ! had raised  him by myself since he was 2 months old, and that I was in and out of a wheelchair due to MS during that time. Our system is so broken. Child abusers get their kids back to abuse them again but me...well, I was in a wheelchair, so that makes evil, so that I can't have my son? They kept him away from me for so long and they sent him back to me on the wrong meds and sick and 3.5 weeks later he passed in his sleep from complications from Epilepsy, and I should of had more time with him, but our damn system played with me in court for several months for absolutely no reason. I have never been so angry and pissed and absolutely saddened by anything in my life! They stole my child, and then pumped the wrong meds in him for a year and sent him back to me sick, and he passed. My belief is that the CPS workers and the Republican judge killed my child. They stole my best friend. They killed the love of my life.

I am quite the yogurt fan. Yoplait is my favorite brand. Right now I am enjoying a Dunkin' French Vanilla Latte Yoplait Whips. It's fabulous! I have quite the sweet tooth, and switching from cookies and brownies and whatever else to the Yoplait Whips has been much easier than I thought it would be. Old habits are usually really hard to break, but thanks to yogurt, I broke the second hardest one. The first hardest one is cigarettes...I will work on quitting, but I have learned in the past that I cannot do it cold turkey. So, I am just trying to cut down gradually.
I got two facial piercings yesterday. I got snake bites. I really like the way they turned out but, damn!!! They hurt to get done!

Today is my son's birthday. He would have been 19. Adonia, Harmony, and I got helium balloons and wrote birthday wishes on them and then set them free to float up in the sky, hopefully to Heaven.
I miss him so much! He was the best part of me. He was my everything. He was so loved...I hope he knew that.
When I am depressed I do various body modifications. Today I got snake bite piercings. 
My diet is still going well. I am munching on cucumber and apple slices. It's kinda hard to chew with 2 fresh piercings so they may actually help with my eating habits and lifestyle change. Fingers crossed!

Uh oh, Molly Roxx is on a diet! She can't be on a diet, she represents plus sized people all over the place!! 
I am not on a diet, I am working on a few lifestyle changes. I need to get healthier so, I am eating all I want, every day, just as I always have...I am however only eating 5 things. Fruit, vegetables, yogurt, chicken, and Healthy Choice/Progresso soup. I need to make sure that my arteries don't clog now that I am middle aged. I need to get rid of this damn adult acne that has all of a sudden decided to fuck with me. I need to keep my MS and allergies in check, and I need to get some weight off of my arthritic knees. I have a lot on my plate. I will never be a skinny mini. I will never not stick up for the rights of plus sized people. But, I can become a healthier version of the same sarcastic, silly, witty, pain in the ass that I have always been and always will be.
I started my new eating plan on the first. I have lost 13 pounds so far. Once I start to feel healthier, I am going to try and quit smoking...for the hundredth time. I recently tried the patch, but it gave me some pretty heavy heart palpitations, so I can't use that again. I am going to look into some herbal supplements that may help me quit. I am a huge believer in herbal supplements!

They always say the people who experience the most pain are the best writers. Well, I spent 2017 in the hospital and the hospice. I was planning for my death...then in 2018 my son passed away...Then I got ghosted by a fake friend. Do I qualify as someone who would be considered a good writer due to pain?
These days I feel like I want to run away...Even though I cannot run, or walk, or stand...I am stuck in a wheelchair right now. It sucks, but I try to make the best of it. I feel there is no need to mope round. I like fun and silly things. I can be serious but I choose not to be most of the time. I want to be happy, and I am not naive enough to believe that others will make me happy, so I have to make me happy. I wear fun glasses. I sing silly songs. I have an extremely dry wit. I am a star at puns...I am truly pretty happy...I do take 2 different meds for my clinical depression, they help me with my happy.
2018 flew by, and now it is 2019...Jan. 11...11 days have flown by so far and what am I doing with my life!?
A new year, a new resolution. I will get in shape and get my ass out of this wheelchair. I, in no way, have a need to be skinny...What I need to be is stronger, and that is my goal. Muscle weighs more than fat so maybe I will become even heavier...I can deal with that, a lot of society cannot...Oh well, sucks to be them. I actually find it funny that most of society has issues with people being plus sized. We're here, we're fat...GET USED TO THAT!